some background

A little bit of background for those that don't know. In June 2010 we found out we were expecting our first baby, due 14th February 2011. He came into the world on the 8th, 5lb 14oz and perfectly healthy. 3 days later he died. No warnings, no s7gns, no reason. SIDS, sudden infant death syndrome. I picked him up after a half hour nap and he was cold, he was dead. Alot came to follow, I'll talk about at a later date. Not long after I fell pregnant again, Due 22nd January 2012, she came in to the world 16th 7lb 6oz and perfectly healhy. She lives, she will be two next week. R is our rainbow. What is a rainbow? "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope. At the end of June this year we found we were expecting again, due 8th March 2014, who knows what the future holds.

starting again.

So I've decided to start blogging again. I sit here, near 32 weeks pregnant with our 3rd child, our second rainbow. I have decided to share more about A, our dead baby. I have so much I have written but never published. He deserves the acknowledgement, he deserves to have the world know he was here. So I will add these entries by date, once R is asleep.